“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
– Joshua 1:9
It’s been a while since I have had much to say. This blog was created as a place so I could share my story with other congenital heart patients. Being one of the oldest living patients with my condition, I tend to be some what of a rarity. Sometimes it’s really cool. Other times it can be quite intimidating. 2016 has actual knocked me on my strong little bum more than once. The beauty is, this little lady never stays down very long.
I do have to say the last two months however, have opened my eyes to an entirely new world. Our world, this big fantastic place full of so much wonder, seems to be in so much turmoil. It’s actually very heartbreaking. When you realize how short and precious life really is, it should be about finding your joy. What makes you laugh out loud, love wildly and want to dance in the rain with you hands in the air? We are all human. We all bleed red and we all return to ash when we go. So why do we spend centuries fighting, hating and arguing? I think in part it has to do with fear. We are all afraid of something. Of dying, or not finding our love, our happiness or of being heard. Continue reading “What If…”
“Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy.” – 1 Peter 1:8
Can I tell you that lately I have been feeling amazing?!! Really! I feel the best I have in my entire life. I have been in the gym like a BEAST. Like a real girl, with a whole heart! God is so good. Joy is pumping in my veins and my spirit like a rush of adrenaline right before you drop in a roller coaster ride. I am on fire and I can’t say enough happy things. Continue reading “Pumped Full of Joy”
Verse of the Day:
“…let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” – Matthew 5:16
This last month and a half has kicked me in the gut. Period. But the last week has really been the most daunting, yet beautiful. Funny how that works out sometimes. The week following Easter I am finding joy in all my sorrow.
For those of you closest to me you know I have been dealing with a personal battle, one that I won’t share… but now I am facing another physical battle. I went to the cardiologist last week… these dang appointments… I should just stop going. I have been saying it for years. Haha! I went because I feel like crap again… well I mean my heart feels like someone is squeezing all the juice out of it every 10 it 15 minutes. And then I am fine… and then it happens again… This my dear friends is called a PVC, or my pacemaker is pacing my ventricle. I only have one so it’s that one… LOL! Basically it feels awful and I want to rip the thing right out of my body, but I can’t because my atrium no longer beats at all without it… I mean at all… nothin’… GREAT!! Continue reading “Tears In My Eyes”