“I can do all things through him who strengthens me.”
– Philippians 4:13
Well 2016 was going to be the year of my SMILE! It started off that way. My divorce was final, I had a place of my own and a job that I loved. I was walking on sunshine, baby, not a thing in the world was going to bring me down. I was even attending Bible study every week and getting my Jesus on. Joy abound in my heart and in my life. I was happy, heathy, killing it in the gym, dating, spending quality time with my family, it was like I had finally reached steady, solid ground. I mean, for the first time in years I was laughing joyfully on a daily basis and nothing in my foreseeable future was going to bring me down. Oh boy, I was in for a world of hurt right around the corner and had no idea a metaphorical Mack truck was about to turn my life upside down.
I hear the scripture above a lot, from so many people. It is a great reminder, but sometimes I feel like some people don’t understand the story behind this famous scripture quote. This quote comes from a letter that Paul wrote to the Philippians, and leading up to this he tells them that he has learned to be content in whatever situation he may find himself in. The highs and lows, abundance and starvation, every trial he has faced in life he understands he will be okay and he knows this now because he has learned that he can do all things through him who gives him strength. That is the key we often miss. Continue reading “Take Chances”
“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
– Joshua 1:9
It’s been a while since I have had much to say. This blog was created as a place so I could share my story with other congenital heart patients. Being one of the oldest living patients with my condition, I tend to be some what of a rarity. Sometimes it’s really cool. Other times it can be quite intimidating. 2016 has actual knocked me on my strong little bum more than once. The beauty is, this little lady never stays down very long.
I do have to say the last two months however, have opened my eyes to an entirely new world. Our world, this big fantastic place full of so much wonder, seems to be in so much turmoil. It’s actually very heartbreaking. When you realize how short and precious life really is, it should be about finding your joy. What makes you laugh out loud, love wildly and want to dance in the rain with you hands in the air? We are all human. We all bleed red and we all return to ash when we go. So why do we spend centuries fighting, hating and arguing? I think in part it has to do with fear. We are all afraid of something. Of dying, or not finding our love, our happiness or of being heard. Continue reading “What If…”
“How great are His signs, how mighty are His wonders! His kingdom is an eternal kingdom; His dominion endures from generation to generation.” ~ Daniel 4:3
Every time I write something on this blog I feel like I am in some sort of place of crisis or of learning. And when I thought about writing over the past year I felt as if everyone was tired of the same old song and dance. Woe is me. . . Now I am better! So I stopped writing. My life is a roller coaster. And I didn’t feel as though this blog was contributing to much more than
stroking my ego, licking my wounds, a place for me to hear nice things from people. Is that right. . .
Last week I suppose my doctor read my blog because she said I should start writing again. Funny!?! I didn’t even know she read my blog. My first response to her was, I am not writing because I am focusing on my book. It wasn’t untrue. I am doing that. And I just wasn’t writing my blog anymore. But the thing is, maybe now I have more to say. Maybe now is the time to start writing again in every way.
Continue reading “Standing In the Fire!”
Verse of the Day:
“…let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” – Matthew 5:16
This last month and a half has kicked me in the gut. Period. But the last week has really been the most daunting, yet beautiful. Funny how that works out sometimes. The week following Easter I am finding joy in all my sorrow.
For those of you closest to me you know I have been dealing with a personal battle, one that I won’t share… but now I am facing another physical battle. I went to the cardiologist last week… these dang appointments… I should just stop going. I have been saying it for years. Haha! I went because I feel like crap again… well I mean my heart feels like someone is squeezing all the juice out of it every 10 it 15 minutes. And then I am fine… and then it happens again… This my dear friends is called a PVC, or my pacemaker is pacing my ventricle. I only have one so it’s that one… LOL! Basically it feels awful and I want to rip the thing right out of my body, but I can’t because my atrium no longer beats at all without it… I mean at all… nothin’… GREAT!! Continue reading “Tears In My Eyes”
Verse of the Day:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5
Today has been a tough day. I am exhausted, my body is sore and I can’t seem to shake this dizziness and headache. No to mention an out of control cough and chest pain I can’t seem to kick, and this weird heart beat… Blah, blah, blah… poor me, right?! That’s what I think! I mean working moms probably feel this way everyday… jeez, get over it already!
Continue reading “Aches and Pains”