It has been quite the ride for me over the last seven months. At the moment, I am in a state of waiting. This is a state of impatience at nauseam that is both mind-boggling and heart wrenching. Over the last few days I have had some tests done at the cardiologist. I am praying and pleading for the outcome I want.
Today I am hoping to hear back from my doctor with those test results. It is a fine, tightrope of a line that I find myself on. One result will mean another open heart surgery, and probably soon. The other will send me back to the drawing board where I have been for the last 10 months. I am more fearful of the latter. Isn’t that something… Continue reading “Wonder Woman & The Waiting Game”
Verse of the Day:
“…let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” – Matthew 5:16
This last month and a half has kicked me in the gut. Period. But the last week has really been the most daunting, yet beautiful. Funny how that works out sometimes. The week following Easter I am finding joy in all my sorrow.
For those of you closest to me you know I have been dealing with a personal battle, one that I won’t share… but now I am facing another physical battle. I went to the cardiologist last week… these dang appointments… I should just stop going. I have been saying it for years. Haha! I went because I feel like crap again… well I mean my heart feels like someone is squeezing all the juice out of it every 10 it 15 minutes. And then I am fine… and then it happens again… This my dear friends is called a PVC, or my pacemaker is pacing my ventricle. I only have one so it’s that one… LOL! Basically it feels awful and I want to rip the thing right out of my body, but I can’t because my atrium no longer beats at all without it… I mean at all… nothin’… GREAT!! Continue reading “Tears In My Eyes”